Risewithefallen's Journals

dear Buzznet

I remember a time when you were different... not well known and stuck to the shadows.... You were so cool and enjoiable... now i almost quiver when the home page uploads.... you used to flock around the music that spoke from peoples souls, now it seems to be recorded out of their wallets to ensure their bank accounts.... i know things change and sometimes need the change, but what did you really gain? You lost so many streamers and gained a fake smile or two... and I wonder if in the end... itll all be worth it...

weekendz!

So this weekend was pretty...hmm well awesome lol. Friday we had school cause of a previous snow day we needed to make it up. However i came home and stayed at home, freakin sucked ass but then sat. i went to mi friend chris's house and spent the night. it went ok cause we went to walmart. lmao i got chris to get into a cart and we were weavin in and out of the food isles and we went back to the entertainment department cause theirs a tv there to see ourselves and chris was throwing a fit so we had to go see it... chyeah a person that worked there made chris get out of the cart....then i found a bike lol, the seat was too high so i didnt ride it far... i wanted more eyeliner so i was looking at the purple kind when chris came around the corner and sprayed me with the most horrific smelling perfume.. then we had a war....haha yeah we smelled pretty good after that ^^ i ended up getting shoes the new bullet for my valentine cd and an older simple plan cd that i used to have but lost.. SUN we got up and went to church.. wasnt too bad i actually enjoy her church. then we went to the mall and OMG wow...besides total hottness take over i got a blood brothers shirt for 10 bucks =] i also asked the mall cops if they had tasers.. it was a negative, i dont like mall cops, they think their so big n bad but they really suck N/O. i dropped my soda from the second story on purpose and mi friends lil sister got yelled for it by the janitor non the less..i found out the fav colors of three lil teenage er preteen bois...haha at first i think i scared the one eh idk...he was pretty cool though for looking like a jock in the making. oh i got a pretzel too, i had to take all the nasty salt off but it was good... i also told some random lady my favorite color was silver.. i spent all my money so i was bord k? plus i dont mind doing awkward things like that. ill normally talk to anyone...but we came home and ate, watched the comedy tour and went to bris house... that was fun! but we had to leave early this morning cause chris's dad had to go to work and i had to get home to babysit my brothers...it was ok till my rents came home though Tday. you know how parents can be, well i promise you mine are 10 times worse...but i dont want to get into that...NEXT WEEKEND I WILL BE IN WEST VIRGINIA im gonna ride in a car er vehicle fer 7+ hours to go celebrate my G=gmoms birthday, shell be like 90...thatll be fun i get outta school for a day =] well im gonna go cause its 11:50 here in Amish country so i hope everyone had an amaZing weekend and that your week goes just fine too. well ill talk to you guys later, <3 you!

Gabi

hey

all right so i just decided [on a whim] haha my new favorite word lol... that im gonna start posting my writing, drawings, and fotos on here. i haven't been on here in a extremely long time and i miss everyone!!! i feel so disconnected.. so everyone, whats up? hows it going?? talk to meh...

this is one of my poems, not so good but then not everyone is Poe...

one line / just one is all i need / to take this pain away / away from me / one cut / one slice in my skin / watch it bleed / then wash away my sin / just one / all i thought i needed / but i have two parents / im twice the failure that i created / everything's my fault / and nothings good enough / ill add another line / and hope to become numb / two slits / two reddened lines / remind me everyday / of all your wretched lies / you couldn't stab me / so look / i did it for you sweetie / are you happy now? / tic tak toe / there's three in a row / our love has gone now / school and neighbors / hateful strangers / all secretly killing me / im comfortable within myself / but none of you see what i see / persecution / taunting eyes / everynite / i add another line / till this nite / i dug too deep / the razors edge / felt too sweet / draining life from my wrist / dropping from my fingertips / this snow white carpet / now ruby red / ill sink away / until im dead /

i dont cut so no worries